Day 202 - Goodbye twenties . . . Hello 30!!

Yup, it's my birthday! I turn 30 today - I'm technically still 29 as I was born at 1:22pm, so I'm holding on to these last few minutes of my twenties until the end!

Looking back on the last decade of my life, I have to say I'm happy with the way my life has gone so far. I did a lot of things these last 10 years that I didn't think I'd get to do or experience 'till later in life, and I don't really have many regrets or should-haves or what-ifs.

The most significant event of these last 10 years would definitely have to be meeting Chris and getting married. I'm so incredibly blessed to have found my soulmate so early in life and to have been able to grow-up with him during such significant years in a person's life. We've been able to experience some amazing things together and if the next 10 years are anything like the last 10 years, I know when I turn 40 I'll be able to look back and reminisce on even more amazing adventures and experiences with him.

I think the 20's for me were a time of great soul-searching and reflection. I kind of barreled my way through my teens - I thought I knew exactly who I was and what I wanted in life. I was a very "hard" person in my teens - I very rarely showed any strong emotion to anyone as I thought it was a sign of weakness and I was always quick to prove to anyone that I was smart, and independant and determined. Then I hit my twenties and it was as if all that angst you're supposed to feel as a teenager (that I didn't) suddenly caught up with me. I didn't know what I wanted to do as a career - should I act? sing? dance? produce? And then when I met Chris and fell in love , that unlocked a whole other side of me that was vulnerable and much softer.

I've always believed that everything happens when it's supposed to happen, and that everything happens for a reason. The last 10 years were meant to be my soul-searching, "figure things out" years. Not that anyone ever stops soul-searching, or growing, or learning about themselves - but as I enter my thirties I feel the determination I felt in my teenage years, but with the certainty and confidence of a woman who has taken the time to actually get to know herself. I feel like everything's come full circle in a way . . .

I am grateful for everything I've experienced throughout my twenties. It's made me who I am, and while I know I'm not perfect, I think I'm trying to be the best I can be. As long as I continue doing that, I have faith that my thirties are going to be . . .


TRULY AWESOME