Day 197 - I'm back!

Yeah, so apparently a one week break from technology is good enough for me. I actually really missed blogging (and email, and facebook, and the internet in general) so decided a one week "fast" was plenty.

It was kind of nice and definitely frees up more time to do other things. I've done a lot of writing in the past little while and am definitely on a roll creatively. I did take a break the other day from writing and recording my own stuff though and did a cover to post on my youtube channel. It had been a long time since I posted my last cover, and I discovered this amazing song called "Cut" by a Christian artist who goes by the name of Plumb that was so moving and haunting I had to do a cover.

I first heard it on the show "The Vampire Diaries" (great and highly addictive show btw) and looked it up as I couldn't forget it. At first it was the music and the melody that got my attention, but when I listened to it again and really listened to the lyrics I was really, deeply moved by it. It's about a really, really serious issue (cutting) and it reminded me of a girl I knew of in middle school who used to cut herself 'cause she said it was the only way she knew how to deal with things. I was too young at the time to understand it and I've wondered since what happened to her. I know that self-mutilation (especially among teenage girls) is sadly on the rise, and it breaks my heart to think that there are young girls out there who are so broken that the only way they can really feel is to feel through pain they inflict on themselves.

Anyway, I did this cover as I hope more people become more aware of this issue and people start talking about it more instead of it continuing to be one of the "taboo" subjects people don't like to bring up.

Read the lyrics, and check out Plumb's songs when you have a minute - great music from a great artist who isn't afraid to sing about the tough stuff:






I'm not a stranger
No I am yours
With crippled anger
And tears that still drip sore

A fragile flame aged
Is misery
And when our hearts meet
I know you see

I do not want to be afraid
I do not want to die inside just to breathe in
I'm tired of feeling so numb
Relief exists I find it when
I am cut

I may seem crazy
Or painfully shy
And these scars wouldn't be so hidden
If you would just look me in the eye
I feel alone here and cold here
Though I don't want to die
But the only anesthetic that makes me feel anything kills inside

I do not want to be afraid
I do not want to die inside just to breathe in
I'm tired of feeling so numb
Relief exists I find it when
I am cut
Pain
I am not alone
I am not alone

I'm not a stranger
No I am yours
With crippled anger
And tears that still drip sore

But I do not want to be afraid
I do not want to die inside just to breathe in
I'm tired of feeling so numb
Relief exists I found it when
I was cut